Saturday, May 25, 2013

Observations From the Back of the Bus

Buses have never been a part of my life.

School buses were not needed, because Mom taught at the tiny Christian school where I began my education. And from grades 5-12, a bus was not required (or provided, I might add) to go from my bedroom to the kitchen or living room.

And the tiny towns where I've lived as an adult don't have running bus systems.

As a child, I always wished I could ride the bus, and remember that each year when we went to our county fair my favorite part was riding in the school bus from the parking lot to the fair grounds.

My childhood wish has more than come true in Costa Rica... I've probably ridden the bus more in the past two weeks than I have in my entire life combined.

And I love it.

Love it!

Of course, there was the time a few weeks ago that I got on the wrong bus, and ended up... not quite sure where. I'd get myself oriented, and in my head scream at the driver, "Turn right... I'll know where I am if you go right!" And without fail, he would either turn left or go straight. This exhausting game went on for almost an hour before we finally ended up in a place that I was familiar with, so got off the bus and walked the four miles home.

Or the time that I was the only one on the bus for almost fifteen minutes. In San Jose. During morning rush hour. And I realized I could look at this one of two ways. Pretend it was the bumpiest, dirtiest limo ride of my life, or that the driver was most likely taking me off route to kill me.


There have been countless funny, random things.

Realizing we'd been at this stop for a really long time and looking up to see that the driver was no longer on the bus. He was in a nearby store, recharging minutes on his cell phone. 
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Sitting at a traffic light long after it's turned green, as the driver bought fruit or coffee from a street vendor.
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Hearing the commuter train's horn, feeling the brakes slam, and the bus going into reverse as we narrowly miss being hit.
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Enduring what seemed like a driver's first day of managing a stick shift, and repeatedly being thrown into the back of the seat in front of me as we went from gear to gear.
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People immediately give their seats to older people (or pretty women) as they step up onto the bus.
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Watching men, who when there are rows and rows of empty seats, still choose to sit Right Next To the pretty girls 
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Making eye contact with fellow passengers, and smiling or laughing as all of these occurred

And there are the scenes that are forever burned into my memory and into my heart.

Watching two men step off the bus - the first stood quietly while the second pulled out his white cane and placed his hand confidently on the shoulder of the first... and then watching as the first also took out his white cane, and they began their slow, trusting walk into the chaos of a San Jose street.
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Seeing a street vendor run over to help these blind men cross the trash-filled chasm between the street and the sidewalk.
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The homeless man who was half in, half out of his cardboard box, trying desperately to find shade and comfort.
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Or the other man, lying flat on his stomach on the wet sidewalk with a coat over his head - and as we drove by I was left wondering whether the coat was to help him sleep, or to block out the world that has gotten too cruel for him.

Wednesday, May 22, 2013

Redemption!

It's been a theme running through my mind recently...

He is a God who can redeem people.

And situations.

And I've been thinking a lot lately how He also can redeem bad days.

Here's an example.

Monday was horrible. It was the start of my third week of intensive Spanish classes, and as I sat there in the early morning listening to my teacher, I realized with horror that I could not understand one word she said. My brain felt foggy, and though I desperately tried to grasp what she was saying, it was as if all of the Spanish that I have learned in the past seven months had fallen out over the weekend.

And as luck would have it, we had a test that morning. I have never in my life scored as low on an assessment as I did that day. And as a perfectionist who has ridiculously high and unrealistic expectations for myself, I was devastated. Then I went to my conversation class, and stumbled my way through an additional forty minutes of groggy hell.

Physically drained from lack of sleep.
Emotionally exhausted from living in a culture different to the one I've known for thirty-four years.
Beyond frustrated at my failure.
I cried.
A lot.

Once home, frustrated and cried out, I lay down to take a nap before starting to study this language that seemed insurmountable.

And my phone rang.

Enter Ophelia.

This precious 85 year old lady lives here in Los Anonos, and views life from her bed or chair, because she can't walk. She has a left arm that is stuck bent at the elbow and clings tightly to her body. Her hand, nothing more than a little bird claw, constantly clenched -- all of this due to a stroke she had four years ago.

This past Sunday, a group was at her house and they prayed over that arm and hand... and witnessed a miracle, as Jesus brought healing and some range-of-motion for the first time in four years!

My phone ringing was Rodney calling to say, "Yesterday as we were at Ophelia's, I felt like God was saying your name to me. If you have time today, I'd like you to come with me to see her, and massage her arm and hand."

After hanging up, I pulled out my Bible and read stories of Jesus healing. And prayed for a long time, getting my heart and attitude right. I also began reading "Healing Unplugged" by Bill Johnson & Randy Clark, a book that I was excited about, but had put off starting because of school.

If God was going to do something big, I wanted to make sure I didn't miss it because I was too exhausted and me-focused to see Him at work.

Two hours later, I was kneeling on the hard floor of this woman's home, gently massaging her arm and praying without ceasing. "Lord, You did a miracle yesterday... but there is not full restoration. Bring life. Abundant life to this arm." She practically purred in quiet joy, as I went up and down her muscles, rubbing carefully so as not to tear her paper-thin skin.

I wiggled my fingers to show her what I couldn't express in Spanish - that I wanted her to imitate. And I'm sure her brain was asking her fingers to wiggle, but the only outward sign that came of that demand, was for the middle finger of her left hand to slowly unfurl. I giggled, feeling pure joy.

That afternoon, I knelt there with tears in my eyes - loving this precious child of God in a tangible way, bringing safe touch to a hurting body and hurting heart. I looked up at her and smiled, feeling like my heart was exploding out of my body through my eyes.  And she slowly reached out with her tiny right hand and started rubbing my arm as I worked on her left.

In that moment I knew that my day had been redeemed, for I had gone from a sobbing, frustrated mess to knowing that I was the luckiest person alive.

Sunday, May 12, 2013

Today is a Tribute Sort of Day

 
Happy Mother's Day to my number one fan.

I can't remember if it was when I had my heart broken for the first time, or when I lost one of my closest friends in a car accident, that Mom said to me, "Your experiences are never wasted. Once you have healed, God uses each thing that happens to you, so that you in turn can be the light at the end of someone else's tunnel, who is coming behind you."

And if anyone embodies that quote, it is my Mom.

"Um, Mom... I told ________ your story, because hers is the same. Is it ok if she comes to talk to you?"

Now, I don't even ask Mom any more... I just sent 'em all her way.


You are learning that being a child of divorce hurts? Go talk to my Mom
You were abused as a little girl? Go talk to my Mom
Waited until your late 20's to get married, convinced it was never going to happen to you? Go talk to my Mom
Have in-laws who do not see or value your worth? Please, go talk to my Mom.

Her life is an open book. The healing that she's received, she freely uses to give hope and courage to others.

She's famous for saying, "You always have a choice - to be Bitter or Better." And when faith is small, or non-existent, I can't even tell you how many times I've heard her quietly say, "God has a good track record."

Mom is a consummate optimist. And she raised us in an optimistic home. If she's sick and you ask her how she's doing, her response is always "Well - I've taken DayQuil and had some orange juice, so I know I'll be feeling better soon!"


Technically, Mom was a "statistic."

She came from a broken home.
       Was raised by a single mom.
              And things happened to her when she was younger that we don't often talk about.


However, Mom refused to become a "statistic."

She (along with Dad & God) formed a rock-solid home for her own children
       Became the best mom, cheerleader, support system and friend, to not just her own three children, but many other people's children as well
              And she allowed her story of abuse and healing, to be the light at the end of countless other women's tunnels



And in the year between last Mother's Day and this, she sent me off with her blessing to a foreign country. 

Mom,

The roots of the tree that I wear around my neck every single day, symbolize the faith and love that you and Dad instilled in me. And the reason I can wear this tree with joy and confidence, is because of your faithful prayers during that dark time period in my life. 

You give me the courage to continue doing what God has asked. You faithfully pray for me. You laugh at my funny stories, and you cry on Skype with me when my heart is breaking. And you still use the word "when" instead of "if" when talking about my life-dreams that I've given up on.

I consider there to be no greater compliment than when people say, "You're just like your mom," because I want to be like you when I grow up.

Happy Mother's Day, most precious of women <3
All my love,
Me


Saturday, May 11, 2013

Also - This Trip to PANAMA Happened!

So, our last trip for visa runs, was a total bust... THIS trip. AMAZING in Every Single Way.


 Our plane tickets... looked more like a ticket to get into a museum


Turns out, the plane was tiny enough to warrant tiny tickets!


The patchwork quilt hills of Costa Rica


More stunning beauty from the sky


Kayaking in the Carribean Sea!


Shadows on the outgoing tides


Palm tree roots


Gorgeous drift wood on the beach


Hamburgers as big as my face!


Kayaking and missing Evan


Drinks on the dock


Happy and thankful


DOLPHINS!!! Out on the sea, playing around our little boat... a direct answer to prayer, and a showing of how God loves me extravagantly -- and cares about my deep down desires.


Stunning contrast in colors


Goodbye, Panama


Hello, San Jose <3